I just don’t understand all of this.  I get sick on my stomach for absolutely no reason, look into the toilet, then as fast as it hit me, it’s gone.  If I didn’t know better, I’d say I was pregnant but that’s not possible anymore.  I don’t know if it has anything to do with the allergic reactions I’ve been having or if it’s an after affect of the reactions.  I just wish the specialist would finally get the darn blood tests back.  It’s been almost 6 weeks since they did it and still nothing.  Basically my life is still on hold wondering what I’m reacting to, when I’m going to run into it again not knowing what it is and if it’s something controllable (it sure isn’t totally controllable yet) or something curable.  The waiting is the hardest part followed closely behind by the not knowing what the problem is.  If I don’t know something soon, I’ll lose my job because of not being able to fully do my job and I love my job.  Sometimes it just seems like life isn’t fair but I’m old enough to know that life isn’t fair.  I just need to quit my whining and it will all work out the way it’s supposed to.